Motherhood

This entry is brought to you by the sh*t no one tells you about pregnancy.

I mean, you get told that your boobs are going to get bigger, that you’re likely going to get morning sickness, that it’s not all fun and games.

But no one tells you that you’re going to get more flatulent at the time that your nose kicks into “high sniffer” alert. So everytime you pass wind, you’re killing yourself with a toxic cloud.
Or leukorrhea (leucorrhoea in the UK). Seriously. I wish someone had told me that I would possibly have the same feeling as when ovulation hits all the freaking time. Yay for crotch-snot. NOT.

No one mentions that the swelling, well, the swelling can cut nerves pathways down and give you carpal tunnel. Yeah. I haven’t had this much pain since I was typing 16 hour days in high school. And that was before the internet folks. BEFORE!

I figure at this rate, I’ll have enough to publish a book about my experience by the time this child is born.
So hang tight for another trimester’s installment of “Sh*t they didn’t tell me!”

Well, got both my referral and sign off on my meds. I’ll be likely contacting the OB/GYN on Monday to see about getting an appointment for when I return from visiting family.

Things seem to be taking shape for me and the kiddo.  Hopefully the upswing will continue. 🙂

Now we begin the waiting game.

I’ve been whacked by the sleepy stick. I am exhausted all the time. This is evidently normal. But let me tell you that it messes with my head and my ability to be a functioning adult. It also doesn’t help that I’ve also had a hard time falling asleep no matter what time of the day it is, or night for that matter.

So yeah. fatigue is really starting to get me. Not to mention that I gave what looked like a unit of blood at the lab Monday.

I just want to sleep all the time right now, in part to get away from everyday stresses and not so everyday stresses. But in part because I can’t seem to catch a break when it comes to getting some sleep, and this is starting to have a fall over effect on my mental health.

In other news, I’m awaiting my referral to a local OBGYN. After doing some research, I know which one I’d like, but we’ll see how that goes.

I can’t wait until next Monday so I can have my medications adjusted.

So much for love being a rollercoaster.

Wonderful side effect of all the hormones rushing through my head. I’ve been between feeling fine and bawling my eyes out. Being a person with ADHD and comorbid depression and OCD is fun, and right now the meds aren’t cutting it. So that means, off to the psychiatrist and see what we can do that won’t harm the baby.

My life has been changed. Everything I do has an impact on someone else’s life now.

I hope we can get this under control, because it’s hard to live every day like this.

So, I discovered I was pregnant about two weeks ago. After ten years of trying, it came as a shock for my husband and I.

But here we are 5.5 weeks and counting. We decided to announce the baby to friends and family a bit early, because we wanted the support network in case the unthinkable happens.

Right now the whole fun of having pregnancy brain and ADHD is happening. I will see my psychiatrist in just over a week and we’ll get to decide then what we’ll do with the fact that I’ve ADHD and a baby on the way.

I’m lucky in the fact I don’t have morning sickness, just epic and seemingly permanent indigestion.