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    Motherhood

    A Letter On Your First Birthday

    My dear beautiful darling daughter. This afternoon will mark your first complete journey around the sun. Last year Daddy and I weren’t sure that you would make it to your first month, let alone your first year. But, even before you were born, you were defying all the odds. So, today we share a birthday, because before you, I wasn’t a mother. I watch you grow every day, and seeing your world expand before you makes my heart grow like the Grinch’s heart (don’t worry, you’ll understand this later). You surprise me every day, and you make me smile when I think that I can’t go on. You are, in…

  • Motherhood

    Sleeping Like A Baby?

    I am beginning to think that anyone who says that has never had a child, forgot having a child or had a child that slept easily. The Kidlet sleeps, but she fights it tooth and nail. We’re working on getting her into a schedule, and it’s mostly working, but there are still nights where we’re woken up multiple times. It doesn’t help that one of the side effects of her medications for her hemangiomas is nightmares/night terrors. Right now she’s gone down for a nap, with little resistance. I know that children don’t get the ability to regulate their sleep cycles until around 2-3 years of age, and as someone…

  • Motherhood

    Begin Again

    For a while I’ve been wondering if I should pick up this blog again. I am definitely a mom, and my daughter is amazing. I would have started blogging again back in late May of last year, but I just had a mental block on it. Something a friend had said to me got my mind into the mindset of not blogging here. Then, another friend posted about her miscarriage, and well, I was drawn back to this again and again,but never managed to put fingers to keyboard to update. So, as part of an ongoing process of getting back to being a healthier person, both mentally and physically, I’m…

  • Pregnancy

    Last Post

    This will be the last post for a while. I had spotting on the 6th that went away and started again with a vengance on 9th. Went to the emergency room, and after several exams, found out that the baby had stopped developing, and so I had a D&C. I intend to try again, and hopefully will be picking this blog back up in the near future.   <3 to you all.

  • Pregnancy

    Stuff No One Tells You

    This entry is brought to you by the sh*t no one tells you about pregnancy. I mean, you get told that your boobs are going to get bigger, that you’re likely going to get morning sickness, that it’s not all fun and games. But no one tells you that you’re going to get more flatulent at the time that your nose kicks into “high sniffer” alert. So everytime you pass wind, you’re killing yourself with a toxic cloud. Or leukorrhea (leucorrhoea in the UK). Seriously. I wish someone had told me that I would possibly have the same feeling as when ovulation hits all the freaking time. Yay for crotch-snot. NOT.…

  • Pregnancy

    More Maternity Fun

    Well, got both my referral and sign off on my meds. I’ll be likely contacting the OB/GYN on Monday to see about getting an appointment for when I return from visiting family. Things seem to be taking shape for me and the kiddo.  Hopefully the upswing will continue. 🙂 Now we begin the waiting game.

  • Pregnancy

    Sleepy Stick…

    I’ve been whacked by the sleepy stick. I am exhausted all the time. This is evidently normal. But let me tell you that it messes with my head and my ability to be a functioning adult. It also doesn’t help that I’ve also had a hard time falling asleep no matter what time of the day it is, or night for that matter. So yeah. fatigue is really starting to get me. Not to mention that I gave what looked like a unit of blood at the lab Monday. I just want to sleep all the time right now, in part to get away from everyday stresses and not so…

  • Pregnancy

    Emotional RollerCoaster

    So much for love being a rollercoaster. Wonderful side effect of all the hormones rushing through my head. I’ve been between feeling fine and bawling my eyes out. Being a person with ADHD and comorbid depression and OCD is fun, and right now the meds aren’t cutting it. So that means, off to the psychiatrist and see what we can do that won’t harm the baby. My life has been changed. Everything I do has an impact on someone else’s life now. I hope we can get this under control, because it’s hard to live every day like this.  

  • Pregnancy

    T-34.5 Weeks And Counting

    So, I discovered I was pregnant about two weeks ago. After ten years of trying, it came as a shock for my husband and I. But here we are 5.5 weeks and counting. We decided to announce the baby to friends and family a bit early, because we wanted the support network in case the unthinkable happens. Right now the whole fun of having pregnancy brain and ADHD is happening. I will see my psychiatrist in just over a week and we’ll get to decide then what we’ll do with the fact that I’ve ADHD and a baby on the way. I’m lucky in the fact I don’t have morning…